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#15: From Ecstasy to Remedy – MDMA Therapy with Anne Wagner

As the so-called third wave of psychedelic renaissance unfolds, the notion of self-improvement has taken a new and deeper meaning. After a long slumber, the field of mental health is waking up to the therapeutic potentialities of these powerful tools in relieving symptoms of depression, PTSD, addiction, and fear surrounding terminal illness. Targeted towards beginners, Michael Pollen’s book How To Change Your Mind, published in the summer of 2018, propelled the conversation around psychedelics to the forefront. Whether it is MDMA, LSD, psilocybin, ayahuasca, or others, the potential for consciousness expansion and psycho-spiritual growth is immense.

The FDA recently granted “Breakthrough Therapy” Designation to MDMA for the treatment of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and is currently in phase 3 clinical trials. Popularly known as a recreational drug, and as the main ingredient in ecstasy, MDMA is paving the way for the possible near-term legalization of psychedelic therapy.

On this episode, we talk to Anne Wagner, a clinical psychologist and one of the lead investigators involved in the MAPS funded clinical trials of MDMA + cognitive-based psychotherapy for PTSD. Anne tells us how she ended up working in the cutting edge of psychedelic science and what these studies offer for the future of mental health. In her clinical practice, Anne applies a cognitive-behavioural and mindfulness-based approach to therapy and she also offers preparation and integration of psychedelic and non-ordinary state experiences. We got to connect with Anne at her new clinic, Remedy in Toronto. 

Highlights:

  • MDMA + Cognitive Based Conjoint Therapy for PTSD
  • Leading Psychedelic Research
  • The Future of Mental Health

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Thal

Welcome Anne to the show.

Anne Wagner

Thanks so much for having me.

Thal

Thank you.

Adrian

Yeah, we’re sitting in your space, Remedy in Toronto. No, actually that’s one of the things we do want to ask you about is to learn more about the work that you’re doing here. Um, but before we dive into your current work. We tend to like to go backwards and just learn about your journey and how you got interested in the intersections between psychology, psychedelic science and specifically the MDMA studies and how did that all come together for you?

Anne Wagner

Sure. So it was not a planned path, that’s for sure. Adding these things together. So I knew pretty early on that I wanted to pursue psychology. So within, you know, the first two years of my undergrad degree, I decided that psychology was something I found really interesting. And the thing that I liked the most about it was just the breadth and depth that you could have within one field. So you could be, um, learning how to run studies. You could be seeing clients, you could be investigating all kinds of different things that have to do with the human psyche and our experiences in the world. So, uh, that to me, the ability to be able to have a life where I got to ask lots of questions and be constantly learning and changing seemed really appealing. So I started that in my undergrad and then decided that, you know, clinical psychology was probably the right route for me. And I started Grad school at Ryerson in Ryerson University in Toronto and I started that in 2007 so I started my master’s and my PhD at Ryerson and then my internship at the Centre for Addiction and Mental Health. And then I went back to Ryerson and did a five year post doc and it was during that post doc that I really, uh, developed a really strong love and interest in working with trauma. And that would have been something that I had always been interested in. And I’d done work in my PhD, uh, working with my mentor Candice Monson, uh, around treatment for post-traumatic stress disorder. And then in my postdoc that really got honed into how do we work with and improve the treatments that we have or potentially make new treatments for PTSD. So, and the reason why I found that so compelling was that the treatments we have, they worked for some people some of the time. And that’s amazing. When they work, you see such incredible change for folks, especially with PTSD. Feeling like that feels permanent or like people are totally changed from how they were before. And, um, the idea that someone can really have their world open up and be able to have a new future after that to me was absolutely compelling. And, um, you know, I tell the story sometimes that my, I think my interest really started in that given my grandfather was a World War II vet and he worked with Veterans Affairs Canada as an under administer of veterans affairs. And, um, he really, really believed in supporting the veterans in terms of their experiences. And at the time, you know, we didn’t have a word for PTSD after World War II, but he knew that there were lots of people who were struggling after their experiences. So I kind of grew up understanding that this was after really challenging and traumatic experiences oftentimes that people have no choice whatsoever in the circumstances in which they’re placed, um, that we owe our brothers and sisters, you know, the ability to help work through, move forward and heal in different ways. So, um, that all kind of started to resonate and coalesce when I was in my post doc and, uh, I was working with Candace on some studies around this treatment that she developed a called Cognitive Behavioural Conjoint Therapy for PTSD. And so it’s a couple’s treatment and that to me was so interesting and fit with my values in terms of being able to work interpersonally with folks and seeing the impact not just on the person, but on their relationships, on their families, on their communities, in terms of how trauma impacts us. So we were doing work with CBCT and testing that in various ways when Candice was approached by the team at MAPS around it, which is the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies about potentially collaborating. And the MAPS team had been looking at the use of MDMA for the treatment of PTSD, uh, for many years at that point, over a dozen years. And, uh, with, you know, the steps before that having taken, you know, another 15 before that. So there was some conversations and I was really lucky to just kind of parachute into this conversation right at the beginning with Candice and we decided to be open minded and give it a go. And so, um, the really exciting piece for me was that I have no idea about psychedelic use in psychotherapy at that point. Like zilch.

Adrian

What year was this?

Anne Wagner

Uh, this would have been in 2013. So I went from literally no knowledge to now running clinical trials with MDMA. And it’s been the most impactful transition for me, um, in terms of my own trajectory and growth and as both a person but also as a researcher and a clinician. So a lot has changed in six years, that’s for sure. And, uh, yeah, at that point, that’s when we started to work on this pilot study of Cognitive Behavioural Conjoint Therapy plus MDMA for the treatment of PTSD. And that started off by Candice and I getting to have our own MDMA therapy experiences through a study for therapists that gave them the experience of understanding what that feels like. And that for me was the thing that convinced me that this was going to be worth my time and energy and putting a lot of love behind this work. So yeah, that was the starting point. That session would have been in spring of 2014 and it’s been kind of history since then in terms of getting this going. So, yeah.

Thal

Um something I’m thinking about when you’re talking about PTSD, um, a lot of people connect it only with veterans. Granted veterans have, you know, they go through a lot and they see all kinds of horrible scenarios. But there are also different types of PTSD, complex PTSD. Um, there are people that, you know, due to childhood trauma have PTSD. So maybe we can, if you can just talk about PTSD a little bit.

Anne Wagner

Sure. Yeah. So PTSD arises from a whole number of different traumatic experiences in people’s lives and they can be, it can be for repeated experiences like a childhood abuse experiences. It can be from repeated exposure to adverse details. For example, first responders are prime for that experience. It can be from single incidents, like it could be from an assault or an accident or witnessing something really traumatic happening to somebody else. Um, and it can be, as you said, for veterans from the experiences of war. It can be from displacement, it can be from all kinds of different aspects of conflict. So yeah, the idea behind PTSD is it can come from all these different things. Um, but it often looks the same in terms of its presentation in terms of what it looks like and people feeling like their need to avoid things that remind them of the traumatic experience. Whatever that experience is. There’s the re-experiencing of thoughts and memories associated with the event or events. There’s a hyper arousal that goes alongside of it. So that feeling in your body of being constantly on alert or constantly activated in some way. And then there’s numbing that goes alongside of it as well. So you may have either really strong emotions and really challenging cognitions or you may end up having a numbed out experience where you’re not feeling much at all. And so all of those, that constellation of symptoms, if you will, or things that happen, they all form to make up PTSD. And, uh, the differentiation, you know, between complex PTSD and PTSD, um, is, you know, it’s one where I think people find it really helpful to talk about complex PTSD, to think about the extent of the experience that they’ve had. Um, and what would I find in the research is actually that the treatments that we have for PTSD as just PTSD work for complex PTSD as well. So I think that, um, for me, I, I would get questions around complex PTSD and what I think about that, and you know, I’ve, I’ve done some publishing actually around challenging the construct.

Thal

That there is no real difference.

Anne Wagner

Right. Yeah. And it’s simply because if we really whittle it down, what matters most…

Thal

Is the experience.

Anne Wagner

Is experience. But it’s also, if we’re going to differentiate, it’s usually because we want to figure out how to best help and best treat. And so therefore, if how we treat would be the same, why would we differentiate between the two? I mean, I’m a fan of parsimony, so.

Thal

I like that. Yeah.

Anne Wagner

Yeah. So he was very open to however, however you want to interpret your experience, 100%, that’s, that’s in your hands. Um, but how it guides how we formed treatment, I think is a different way.

Thal

I think the main thing is that because a lot of people who are suffering from PTSD and they’re not veterans, they don’t legitimize their, you know, they feel like, you know, or, or they perceive like, “do you really have PTSD?” Like you, yeah, we’re not in a war zone or something like that.

Anne Wagner

Yeah, yeah, exactly. And I do think that helps in terms of, or can I notice it more actually in terms of, uh, folks having a broader understanding of their experience if they feel like they identify with one term another and yeah. I think whatever means to be able to own and accept the experience is useful. Yeah.

Adrian

I put a flag down when you mentioned, um, having that experience with, with Candice the first time you were sort of, sort of convinced that you wanted to do this research.

Anne Wagner

Yeah.

Adrian

Are you comfortable sharing what that experience was like?

Anne Wagner

Sure. Yeah. Um, so yeah. Okay. So the experience of having an MDMA therapy session, uh, so the way it was designed in that first, the thing I participated in, we had one active session and then one placebo session of course that you don’t know which one you’re going to get first and uh,

Adrian

But you’ll pretty quickly know which one… [laughing]

Anne Wagner

Yes. Well, I figured it out, although it was pretty funny about an hour in, I wasn’t, I was not perceiving any effect at that point. And I thought to myself, I was like, “you know, this is probably placebo. All right. Like I’ll have to wait.”

Thal

“Oh, no it’s not!”

Anne Wagner

Oh yeah, exactly. Yeah. Like within 10 minutes. You know, it’s funny, everyone else had seen my blood pressure spike, but I had not seen the, um, the recording side. I had eye shades on and they were all, you know, waiting. And then I’m like, wow. Yeah. Um, so that experience for me was, uh, it was so interesting. It was the most impactful therapeutic experience I’ve ever had. It felt like I was able to check in and all these areas in my life really quickly where without any extra layers on top of it. Like it took away my own judgment and shame and guilt around things. And it let me literally just go through all the areas of my life and go, what do we think about this? What do we think about this? How about that? And it felt like I wasn’t particularly intending to check in these areas, but it allowed me to do that. And it felt like I reached my conclusion easily and readily. And even if that conclusion was ambivalence about something, I was like, great, I’m ambivalent about that. That’s the answer. So it let me not second guess a lot of things that were happening in my internal world. Um, and I found that, that the effects of it lasted for a really long time. I mean, it, it literally that session I felt like I was integrating and processing for, you know, weeks if not months later. But the overall impact for me has been, yeah, well it really, it changed my life and a lot of ways, not just because of the therapy, but also what it had then led to. And I think that that sense of that deep investigation and exploration can really help to shape your trajectory. So, um, yeah, so that was, and I was actually great, really grateful to have a placebo session next. Cause then I just got to integrate the whole experience a few days later. Talk about it going like, wow. All right, so all this stuff happened in that session. I get to chat about it. Now.

Adrian

I guess at that point then, um, what were the next steps after having the experience and then you can ask to go go ahead with the research. Was that the deciding point to, to move along and then to move ahead.

Anne Wagner

Yeah, it, yeah, it certainly was for me, I think we went in pretty open minded, like, you know, curious to explore it, but using that as a, uh, a test to see did we think that this might have value or could you see this working? Um, and so after that we ended up.. Initially we were thinking a lot about, okay, so we’ll go into the experience. So she had these questions in mind and we should think of that. And then as soon as I got into the MDMA experience, I was like, forget it. I’m just having my own experience. I’m not thinking about methodology for study. Right. We basically, we both chose to use that week just to have our own experiences and think through that. And then with time, you know, I quickly made the decision that I wanted to use this as a tool for therapy, but we then gave ourselves a bit of space to then actually start thinking up what that would look like in terms of a treatment and a protocol and things.

Thal

So, so you guys combined the MDMA therapy with uh, you said CBCT. That’s right. It, can you talk to us about that please?

Anne Wagner

Sure. So, um, we use, so CBCT Cognitive Behavioural Conjoined Therapy for PTSD is a 15 session treatment that’s designed for two people to go through the treatment together and uh, those two people could be in any way in relation with each other. It’s generally speaking, is romantic couples who choose to go through treatment together, but it doesn’t mean it has to be. Um, and so within that treatment folks are taken through kind of three main phases of therapy. The first phase is really understanding PTSD. Um, doing some psychoeducation about what PTSD is, what it might look like in your relationship, how it’s impacting you as well as talking about, uh, how anger and aggression can impact the relationship and just beginning to understand what those look like in the relationship and building some skills to counteract that and cope with. And then moving into phase two, we go more specifically into other skill building. So communication skills, like paraphrasing and some problem solving skills and beginning to approach things that the couple has been avoiding. And so we designed these approach tasks with the couple to help them be able to live a life of approach where they’re, you know, engaging together and doing things that they may not have been doing otherwise. And then the third phase specifically moves into making meaning of the traumatic event. And so thinking about areas where each of them, and together they may be stuck around the trauma, um, and thinking through some core themes that are related to trauma. So acceptance and blame are a big one. A control, power, trust, esteem, intimacy, um, post-traumatic growth. So using those. And then, uh, so that’s the framework of CBCT. And then what we did when we added MtMDMA to it was, we put it in strategic places in the protocol where we thought, uh, you know, if we were going to want to boost the effect of what we’re doing, we’d maybe want it in these two places. So one was in right after they’ve learned the communication skills. And so being able to have those skills as a bit of a template to be able to work with the experience together, both during and after. And then again, we placed one right in the heart of the trauma processing. So they’d started some and then we put the MDMA session to allow them to see what else could unravel in that moment and then work with them to integrate it after.

Thal

I think he had mentioned that it’s not only romantic couples, right. Have you guys had different types of dynamics?

Anne Wagner

So in the pilot with the MDMA, it was only romantic couples. Uh, we were open to, the recruitment was open for any type of diet, but it was only couples who came in. Um, but then in case studies that we’ve worked with outside of that study, we’ve seen, um, parent-child, we’ve seen, um, good friends go through it together and trying to think who have had siblings. Yeah. So there’s been a few different constellations.

Thal

And, and do you think the impact of the therapy would be different if it was just singular? Like, just like the person that’s suffering from PTSD without the conjoint.

Anne Wagner

So, I mean there are other therapies…

Thal

Yeah, cause I’m just thinking about the difference between both. Yeah. Um, but I, I do see the benefit of the relational aspect.

Anne Wagner

It’s definitely a different frame in which to conduct the therapy and, um, you know, the individual treatment. Um, for example, Cognitive Processing Therapy, which is going to be the next pilot study that we’re running with MDMA. Um, it is an individually delivered.

Thal

Oh, so you’re going to do that okay.

Anne Wagner

Yeah and the work that’s been done up until now, so, uh, that the MAPS team has been running, has been an individually delivered treatment and it’s with an inner directive supportive psychotherapy for PTSD. So not, uh, specifically one modality, but kind of allowing what comes up. Uh, so partly one of our goals with doing the know the CBCT and now the CPT plus MDMA was to use treatments that have already been tested for treatment for PTSD. And to see when we add MDMA, do you have even broader or stronger effect? Uh, so they’re giving us a different starting point in terms of the evidence in which to see if it’s effective.

Adrian

I wanted to ask if the subjects who were part of that first pilot that you were involved in, were they diagnosed as treatment resistant PTSD? Have they tried other forms of treatment prior to the study?

Anne Wagner

Yeah, so in this, in the pilot we ran, they didn’t specifically have to be treatment resistant, but they all were. Um, so it was, it just so you know, it people are not necessarily jumping the gun to do this without having tried many different things. So yeah, everyone had had lots of different treatments in the past.

Adrian

I’m so curious. Um, yeah, there’s so many, so many questions. Yeah. I’m thinking a juicy place to dive into is their first experience, you know, if you can share with us perhaps maybe what their experiences were leading up to it and, and the, what the day looked like, when they had it for the first time?

Anne Wagner

Sure. So, um, so folks had some preparation ahead of time, so obviously they’d gone through a consent process. And lots of conversation about what this whole treatment was going to look like. And then they’d had some intensive days or a day and a half, basically of CBCT. So we squished the equivalent of five sessions into a day and a half of CBCT. Um, and so, and some of that day was in the morning of their MDMA session. So they were, uh, mostly quite nervous before their MDMA sessions. Especially a lot of them were either psychedelic or entactogen naive or the experiences they had had where like 20, 30, 40 years ago and you know, university at some point. Um, so never in this context and never with the presumption that they’re going to be talking about trauma. So, uh, yeah, so there was definitely anxiety ahead of time, which we work with and a lot of the partners were quite anxious too, cause you know, they really, okay,

Adrian

They’re coming along for the ride.

Anne Wagner

So yeah. And everyone went through with it and did it. And, uh, so the way the room is designed, when we were doing the sessions, uh, there would be two recliner chairs. And so the couple would sit in those recliner chairs and be able to either have the option of sitting up or lying back, not completely flat, but you know, quite reclined. And then the two therapists would be in the room with them and facing them. And then if people were feeling really activated and they want some support from the therapist, we had like small camper chairs that we would sit beside them on the recliner chairs. So, um, they could have, it’s a little bit space or closeness and, uh, they were close enough to each other that if they reached out, they could touch hands or hold hands or can choose not to if they wanted to as well. And so the way the day was, there really was no structure to the day other than, um, you know, we would encourage them to spend time as we deemed it inside, which means, uh, with headphones on, eyeshades on and just reflecting internally and that experience and other times where they’d be talking with us, talking with their partner in sharing the experiences that were coming up or reflections. Um, so, you know, we’d go through different periods of time inside time outside, and we learned how to better orchestrate interaction between the couple in terms of, you know, at some point someone’s ready to talk and the other one’s deeply in process with something else. So we would, um, we learned how to kind of check in with one or the other, maybe jot down a note and say we’d hold that, that thought for them. And they could go back inside and we’d raise it again when everyone was, you know, out in the room. Yeah. So that’s basically what it looked like.

Thal

What about the role of music.

Anne Wagner

Music plays a very important role and kind of assisting the process. So, you know, allowing for an arc in the experience and having, um, supportive music kind of at the beginning. And then active music as you kind of getting peak effect and then, uh, music that helps with resolution and closer to the end. Um, but you also need to, you know, we had, we were flexible with the music within it. So, um, Annie Mithoefer who is one of the investigators and she’s a great Dj. So she was our DJ for all the sessions, which I’m going to have to learn how to do when I’m running the sessions here and, uh, yeah, so both members of the dyad would have earphones on and we’d also have it playing in the room so everyone could hear the music. And so we had splitters to do that and then at times we turn the music off when they’re talking and yeah.

Thal

I was going to ask like do you turn off when they’re talking?

Anne Wagner

Yeah or turn it down. Just mostly so it’s easier for everyone can hear each other.

Adrian

How many couples were there in total in that study?

Anne Wagner

Yeah, so it was a small number. So we ran six couples through it and it’s really, originally we were thinking of going up to 10, but, uh, for a number of different reasons, including time and money. And, uh, but also the main reason was because our effects were looking very good. We decided to stop at six. Um, to be able to kind of had enough evidence to show we can do it. It’s feasible, it’s safe, people tolerate it and people improve. And as enough of a signal to say, we need a larger study. So in designing the larger study that would have a control condition.

Adrian

I imagine all the internal experiences vary greatly between participants. But were there any commonalities you guys noticed, um, in, in those, uh, in the six that you, you were sitting with.

Anne Wagner

Uh yes. I mean, one thing that I think was very interesting as someone who does a lot of trauma therapy with folks outside of a MDMA work is just how consistently people would go into their trauma memories and recount the experiences unprompted with MDMA. And so that was fascinating and I’d heard that that had been the case, uh, with the other studies, but that it, like clockwork would happen every time. And um, you know, it was no priming no asking people to go into the memory. We don’t even actually require that at all if people in CBCT to actively go over the memory. But it happened for everyone.

Thal

It’s like they went through the files of…yeah, amazing.

Anne Wagner

Yeah. That analogy is used a lot actually like putting files in a row and you know, I had that experience myself of like checking in. It’s like checking all the files and then other people with PTSD when they’re going through this you know, checking through the files, the memories. And so then the role of the therapist, um, is really the major role is pre and post the experience. Like during the experience of course you’re holding the space for the, for the clients, but it’s, it’s, it seems like from what you’re saying that it’s like, um, self guided in a way. Yeah. The MDMA session itself, we’re definitely there to hold space and to help when people are stuck. And so I think that piece is also very important. Um, and you know, sometimes when we think about like being non directive, in fact there’s moments where we’re actively working with folks in session to help the experience or if people are feeling particularly stuck in a thought or a memory we’re there to help them work through that and you know, gently, you know, be socratically questioning, you’re asking different things or exploring. But the massive chunk of that work is before and after.

Adrian

So what happened after the first session? What’s the next stage in the protocol of the study?

Anne Wagner

Yeah, so they’d gone through equivalent to five sessions of CBCT before and then they had the MDMA session and then the next morning we would talk about experience, integrate it a bit and set them up with out-of-session work for the following week. And then they would do the equivalent of four sessions of CBCT. In this case we did it over video, um, simply pragmatically, cause we’d all didn’t live in the same place. And then they came back together about three weeks later, I had another day where they did two sessions of CBCT and then they had a second MDMA session. Integrated that and then finished out the protocol, which was four more sessions of CBCT. So they received MDMA twice this whole thing. Yeah. It took about two months to get through everything.

Adrian

What were the results? Sort of dying to hear the summary of the findings.

Anne Wagner

So they are not published yet, but I can let you know. So we actually published a case study last week. Um, so that has the first results are out in the world.

Adrian

Congrats.

Anne Wagner

Thank you. Very exciting. It’s in the Journal of Psychoactive Drugs, so that’s good. Um, so yeah, overall the results were very strong. We had really good results for PTSD, both from the report of the person with PTSD, so their self report as well as the clinician rated report. And so that’s an independent rater. So not the people who treat them, it’s from someone who doesn’t know where they are in treatment and whatnot. And they also, we saw significant improvements in relationship satisfaction as well. And that was really interesting because not all the couples were distressed coming in. And I think that’s important because a lot of the time, you know, we think about actually how PTSD lives in relationships. People have to make sense of it and therefore, oftentimes they accommodate the other person as we all do in our lives. We accommodate the people we love. So it’s, you know, you’re trying to make it okay and especially when something’s not okay in a system, it creates a very difficult system. But that works for some people. And so that can be a challenge sometimes when things change, the system disrupts because everything’s been, you know, trying to hold tight to keep it together. So the fact that we saw improvement for folks who even already we’re starting okay. Which meant there might’ve been some accommodation was really interesting. Yeah. So more to come.

Thal

So it’s not really couples therapy, it’s, it was, it’s conjoined therapy, but um, that the, you know, the couple’s therapy is like that bonus part that came.

Anne Wagner

Yeah. Yeah, exactly. I mean the way we structure it, I mean it really, it is a couples therapy. Yeah. It could be any version of couple that you think of. Um, but the idea is the relationship is actually the client in CBCT. So it’s not the person with PTSD, it’s not the partner. It’s the couple or the relationship. And having that be the focus is really useful. So that one person doesn’t feel like the other person is their other therapist or that they’re responsible for the person, they’re doing it together.

Adrian

Are you, are you able to share any of the self reports by the subjects, um, things that they shared with you, whether it’s during the study or afterwards that you might want to share with listeners?

Anne Wagner

Sure. So, um, I mean, people spontaneously had really incredible, you know, things that they wanted to say or share. And, um, I’m, you know, feeling like they’d gotten their lives back or that they felt renewed hope for the future. And, um, you know, in the session itself, you know, I had people say that, you know, this is really, it felt like they had gotten their marriage back or that they now have a sense of feeling connected. Um, I got an email a few months ago, which marked like a year since one of the couples had started the study and it was just a reach out of gratitude and thanks. And reporting that they felt like they had a completely different life and they were very grateful and that they just thought it was all really cool. So that was a really neat thing to receive.

Thal

It’s amazing. How rigorous was it for you like to go through the daily experience of going through the study and, yeah.

Anne Wagner

Yeah. It’s a labor of love doing the clinical trial, that’s for sure.

Thal

I can imagine.

Anne Wagner

It’s, you really have to want to do it. And, uh, I remember, you know, Candice once told me, this is not for the faint of heart. I’m like, no, it was very, very true. It’s a lot of details and a lot of planning. Um, it a ton of work for a little bit of data, but it’s in my mind, so worth it. And you know, the days when you sit in the sessions with folks, um, and you see them change right there in front of you and you were like, wow, this idea we had, I think it’s working like this. That’s unreal. Um, that feels, that feels pretty cool. And, uh, so yeah, it’s, it’s, I found working on this particular study to be incredibly inspiring and so that certainly helps drive all the rest of the work and is now shaped what I’m doing going forward,

Adrian

If I remember correctly, most of the subjects, if not all, had improvements in their symptoms of PTSD. How, how did they do afterwards? Post study? What was the timeframe for the follow up and checking in on them?

Anne Wagner

Yeah, so the vast majority, well, I mean, there’s only six couples. The majority, not everyone, uh, a resolution their PTSD, but most did and those gains were maintained through six month follow-up. So that’s the, the most, the furthest data we have. Yeah.

Adrian

That’s really cool. Yeah. I mean, one of the things that we often hear a lot in psychedelic research and, and, and, um, just discourses the integration after these experiences. Can you share any wisdom that you might have gained from this study about how to better integrate or, or to tie back to their daily lives?

Anne Wagner

For sure. I think a big piece is that integration isn’t just like your next session with your therapist. Integration happens over time as you begin to put the lessons you’ve learned into action and it might shape your approach to something or how you feel in general. Or you might have an echo of it, you know, a year later and go like, oh, yeah, so it’s, it’s being open to that being the case, I think is the key thing with integration as you go forward. And we certainly saw that, you know, in some cases we saw people continue to make gains over the six months afterwards. And that for us was really interesting because that means that they’re still learning and growing. And that is ideal because you’re basically setting people up for a new baseline, a new place to start from. And that happens often when people find success with treatment without MDMA. Um, but it was particularly highlighted for me when the use of a psychedelic or entactogen.

Thal

I’m thinking about a psychotherapist listening to this wondering when will legalization happened. When can I start training?

Anne Wagner

It’s a good question. Um, so what is looking like right now? So all of the movement to have MDMA legalize as a treatment for PTSD? It’s, it started in the US because that’s where all of the studies have happened so far. It’s looking, we’re hopeful that it will be within the next few years that it will be legal. Because right now there’s a phase three study, which is a drug development study happening in multiple different sites across North America, uh, sponsored by MAPS. And they at that point they will, after phase three, it’s possible that MDMA will get the indication to be a treatment for PTSD. So that’s the doorway to it being legal. Um, and so the hope is we would quickly follow suit in Canada using the evidence for the US. So, I mean my fingers are crossed that it’s going to be within the next few years. Um, there is also in the states there’s something called Expanded Access where when things are demonstrating strong effect and people are at risk for death, that you can potentially be using um, a medication that’s still being investigated for specific cases to be used. So, uh, the training that’s happening right now for folks to become MDMA assisted psychotherapist is for this idea of Expanded Access or those of us who are studying it you doing through the research. Um, so that, I mean, could be as soon as later this year we’re expanded access could be available in some places, uh, in Canada. We’ve different regulations around that. So it may not be as straight forward, um, but potentially could still be a possibility. And then of course, I mean the psilocybin work is another area where, um, you know, we’re seeing fast movement in terms of potentially there being indications for treatment-resistant depression and other things. So that might be another area where we might be seeing the potential legal use of psychedelics and treatment.

Adrian

Yeah. I know everyone’s got their fingers crossed, right? It’s like, it’s, you know, it seems like this is the opportunity but also not to mess it up. And so it definitely, you know, important that this time around this renaissance that’s happening is to do it properly so that it is sustained.

Anne Wagner

Exactly. It’s extremely important that we don’t squander this opportunity over here. Uh, this, there has been so much work that has gone to this place and so many have been paving the way for this to be the case. And, um, I’m very conscious of just how measured we need to be and just how careful and thoughtful around all of this use.

Adrian

Can you talk about the other studies so that with the CPT plus MDMA that is.. Is it currently underway?

Anne Wagner

It’s in development right now. So I’m just finishing the protocol for it. Uh, so our hope is that we’ll be recruiting in the fall for that study, but that’s pending a bunch of different approvals that need to go through. Um, so that study design is very similar to the couple’s study. Um, it’s going to be, but it’s an individual treatment and using CPT. So cognitive processing therapy, which is one of the most widely used and most widely researched and has some of the strongest evidence for the treatment of PTSD. And it’s usually 12 sessions. And so right now we’re just, you know, we’re finding exactly where we’re going to place the two MDMA sessions within the protocol. Um, but it will likely have a similar structure in terms of having a masked dosing of treatment before the first time. Do you may session spread out over three weeks, second MDMA and then finish it out. And this time, not over video cause we’ll do it here in person.

Adrian

How is, um, how’s the recruitment for that? So how do people, uh, if they’re interested in joining the study or being a participant, how does that happen? How does that work?

Anne Wagner

So right now we’re not, we don’t have open recruitment since the study isn’t approved yet. Um, but if people are interested in it, uh, if it will be for PTSD. So it is specifically for PTSD and people don’t have to already have a diagnosis of PTSD because it will end up, you know, they will have to go through assessment through the study. Um, but they can always contact us at Remedy and, we have a contact us button on our homepage and can be added to a list to learn more. And so that would, uh, it doesn’t guarantee anything, but it just would allow folks to get updates as to, for example, when the study is starting to recruit or updates along the way as we get going.

Thal

Awesome. So maybe, um, then talk to us about Remedy?

Anne Wagner

Sure. Okay. So Remedy, um, it’s where we’re sitting right now. So Remedy is a center for mental health, innovation in Toronto. And, uh, the idea behind remedy was to have a home where research and practice really live together. And the idea that we want to be continually open to growth and exploration as clinicians, as researchers, as people who are working in mental health. And that includes our own growth as well as the growth of the field. Um, so the idea here at Remedy is everyone who’s involved as invested in the idea of innovating mental health. And that can be in a whole host of different ways. So, uh, for example, one of the ways we do that is going to be through MDMA research here. Uh, but also we have folks who are innovating how we manage a practice, how, um, you know, we run trauma-informed Yoga, how we do care for folks that’s integrating different types of treatments together. We have all kinds of different things. Someone is going to be writing, you know, pop psychology book based on evidence. So it’s innovating how we think about an access, mental health and, and thinking about it in a broader way so that we don’t feel stuck or stymied in how we do that. So we offer a clinical services, but also we do research here and we collaborate with different likeminded group to create a community who are all with the same vision.

Adrian

I imagine it’s part of the vision, um, to consider post legalization and what that might look like. Can you share a little bit about your vision for once it’s legal, what the clinic might look like and how it’s offered to the public?

Anne Wagner

Yeah, absolutely. So my vision for that will be, we’ll have basically two tracks. We’ll have our research stream, which will be running and testing interventions, uh, which you know, is where my love is there and that I’m also a clinician and I want to be able to offer this in terms of people being able to come in and receive MDMA psychotherapy for PTSD in the practice here. So it will be either people can participate through research or through being able to come in. And you know, have that treatment. So, uh, yeah, we’ll be set up here to be able to offer that given that war already going to be set up to run the research. And so we’ll be ready and opening our doors to that the minute it’s legal. So yeah, we’ve got a team here who, uh, actually I just took a team down to Asheville, North Carolina for the most recent MDMA therapist training and so we’ve got a team who are raring to go.

Thal

That’s awesome.

Adrian

I’m just imagining if, if you had infinite funding and resources from a, from a research side, what would excite you as far as future research studies that you might want to explore and go into?

Anne Wagner

I’ve already designed my next big one. So it would be a randomized controlled trial for the couples study. So it would be, um, CBCT plus MDMA in one condition and then with a placebo control and the other maybe a crossover design at the end. So, but that would be the, we really need to test it out with more people and more diverse sample. I think that was a massive thing is, you know, in the pilot study it was heterosexual Caucasian folks in that sample. And that is not representative of …

Adrian

The globe.

Anne Wagner

The globe. We are here in Toronto. And um, you know, I think particularly, I’ve done a lot of community work in queer communities here and I think, you know, expanding especially what that looks like in terms of our, you know, constellations of folks participating in the treatment and as well as the therapists that they, we have, uh, we’re really excited about what that’s gonna look like. And when we test it on a bigger scale, like what’s it gonna look like for everybody.

Thal

Yeah. It’s going to look very different. Hopefully it’s going to be legal very soon. It’s going to look different when it’s, you know, out there and different people are accessing it.

Anne Wagner

Yeah, yeah, exactly.

Thal

Can’t wait. Yeah.

Adrian

Yeah. We’re super stoked for your work. I mean, you’re right in the trenches, so it’s, it’s a real honour actually. Yeah. To be, to be in your space and to get a glimpse of the journey so far.

Anne Wagner

Aww thank you.

Thal

Any more questions? Feel pretty good there. Yeah. Is there anything that you’d like to add, something that you have not been able to share in other lectures or other interviews?

Anne Wagner

Um, that’s a great question. I think, you know, it’s a really exciting time for this work. Um, I think it’s the, the possibilities for growth and exploration are also huge when it comes to psychedelics and entactogens and I don’t want to lose sight of that. And I think oftentimes when we are focusing so much on the clinical work and the clinical indications, that sometimes feels like maybe gets pushed to the side when, you know, there’s so many cultures around the world who’ve used psychedelics as forms of ritual, as forms of growth and learning and healing that, um, you know, this is not new. This is not new at all. I want to honor that.

Thal

In fact it’s ancient.

Anne Wagner

Exactly, exactly. Yeah. Just so happens that we’re conceptualizing, it’s used right now with how we understand this particular version of how we present …

Thal

And in our modern context, which is fine.

Anne Wagner

Yeah, exactly. Yeah. So I think I want to make sure we know that, that this, you know, while it feels “cutting edge” it is completely ancient. And this, we’re not, uh, coming up with new ideas particularly, but, uh, but really honored also to bring it forward into the here and now. So there’s that piece. Um, yeah, I think that’s a biggie. That’s on my mind.

Thal

Yes. And, uh, hopefully that will, you know, um, rev revolutionize mental health, which is, you know, the thing, you know, coming up now.

Anne Wagner

Yeah, I think so. Yeah. And I think we have so much possibility there. You know, I do think we’re at a time where folks are far more reflective about their own internal world and the possibilities for that and that this might be one tool to really assist in that.

Adrian

I guess just one final thing to a, I’m reminded of, um, the way Michael Pollan shared just the excitement beyond the pathological use or, you know, addressing pathological, um, experiences and just for the betterment of, well-people, I think it was the way that he was putting it and I think yeah, starting to redefine mental healthy on sort of the, the sort of, the highly stigmatized, um, cultural perspectives that we have.

Anne Wagner

For sure. Yeah. I have hope that one day we’ll be able to offer, um, you know, MDMA assisted psychotherapy for couples, right? Just not because there’s PTSD, but because you know, people want to explore and grow together and understand the relationships and their dynamics or for individuals and you know, still thoughtfully and with precaution and all the good context of set and setting and a good container. But the idea that that would be a tool would be lovely.

Adrian

Thank you so much for your time today.

Anne Wagner

Thanks so much.

Thal

Thank you.

#10: Enter the Sacred Field of Kabir with Andrew Harvey

The mystical, the mythical, and the mysterium, the realm of cosmic forces remains enigmatic. We may project our human perception onto the unknown or completely reject it. What we don’t know scares us. Fear of the ‘other.’ It may be easy to dismiss mysticism as a way of the ancient ones. Yet, our mythical and mystical musings remain alive today through literature, poetry, music and yes, through video games and shows like the Game of Thrones and Harry Potter! There is no separation.

The lines between interviewer and interviewee become blurred as we shed our skin with a modern-day mystic: Andrew Harvey. We recorded this conversation a day after a poetry reading by Andrew, here in Toronto to celebrate the release of his latest book, Turn Me To Gold: 108 Poems of Kabir. Andrew brings in his energy and ecstatic presence as he shares his vision of sacred activism – in response to our meaning crisis or what he sees as a massive transformation of consciousness. Andrew was born in South India in 1952. He was educated in England and studied at Oxford University. By 1977, he became so disillusioned with life at Oxford, he returned to India where a series of mystical experiences initiated his spiritual journey. Andrew has studied under many sages and saints from different traditions. He is the author of over 40 books and lectures internationally.

Highlights:

  • The Mystical Experience of Writing Kabir Poetry
  • Problems with New Age Spirituality
  • Message for Young Seekers and Sacred Activists

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A poem inspired by this episode

Full Transcript

Andrew Harvey:          

How lovely to be addressing you. How did you enjoy last night? How did it register in you?

Thal:                 

It was amazing. I felt the poetry, your presence, and your energy and you know, I come from a Sufi background so I was sitting there, I was like, yeah, this is what I already know but felt it.

Andrew Harvey:          

Exactly! Isn’t that wonderful? That to me is the exact response because we do know this, it is our reality and all the great ones like Kabir, they just wake up this knowledge within us. Kabir is not trying to be a guru, he is trying to empower us with our own authentic awareness because he knows that everyone is secretly divine and has all of this knowledge. That’s what I tried to do. I’m not, I couldn’t. What a boring thing to be a guru. My God. Terrible! What a waste of time where you can have all the fun in the world with people like you. Right. What did you feel?

Adrian:             

We were just talking, I am really raw right now. I mean from last night something happened where to me, you mentioned lion a few times the imagery of a lion and you were the lion last evening. You roared with that power. I felt like the lions in the room all heard it. We heard the cry and a part of me is kind of waking up to this realization of we got to act. You know there’s a sense of urgency and I love the energy that you are bringing.

Andrew Harvey:         

Act from sacred consciousness. Act from that vibrant wholeness within. You will be a lion in your own way. Everybody’s lion is different. There are tender lions. There are soft lions. There are wild lions. It is finding your own and unique inner lion, isn’t it? Yeah. I just do me, my big Me and then hope to wake up the lions in the room. I’m training the special forces.

Adrian:             

You’re definitely doing that.

Thal:                 

I want to share something with you before we start. I think it was two years, almost two years ago or a year ago when you were on a podcast with Tami Simone, “Sounds True”.

Andrew Harvey:          

Yes.

Thal:                 

Yes. I was going through one of my many dark nights of the soul and I’m just right in the middle of the interview…

Andrew Harvey:          

You’re a good Sufi.

Thal:                 

Hopefully. Right in the middle of the interview. You said one of the prayers that I have always utter in my practice, which is “show me things as they are”. Then you said that that’s from one of your favorite teachers, Prophet Mohammed, peace be upon him. The moment you said that…It hit so hard with me that I just wept. I had to stop the podcast and I wept for like 30 minutes, so just wanted to share that.

Andrew Harvey:           

What a beautiful… You know, one of the things that hurts me the most is the way the Prophet is seen in the West. When you get a glimpse of a glimpse of a glimpse of who the Prophet is, how could you not weep for half an hour?

Thal:                 

I love him, you know, he’s like…

Andrew Harvey:          

Oh God. Of course.

Thal:                 

He embodies the Divine Feminine. Like his teachings were all about the Divine Feminine…

Andrew Harvey:          

Absolutely…he says paradise is at the feet of the mothers. You remember?

Thal:                 

Yes

Andrew Harvey:          

Paradise is at the feet of the mothers and the first phrase in the Quran is about Rahman Al-Raheem. Both come from Rahm, the womb. God is mother first of all in the Quran and it’s impossible to read his life without being stunned by his tenderness. Look at the story of the cat. You know that wonderful story…he only has two tunis and his favorite cat is sleeping on one of the arms and he cuts off the arm of his tunic so as not to wake up the cat. ‘Adab (graceful comportment) is feminine. ‘Adab is entirely about tenderness and courtesy and respect and reverence. Those are feminine virtues and until you know that you know nothing about Islam.

Thal:                 

The most people who misunderstand Islam are Muslims.

Andrew Harvey:          

Wahhabis have no idea about the Prophet. If they could meet the Prophet he would be out of his mind with suffering about what they’ve made of his revelation.

Thal:                 

I believe that 100 percent

Andrew Harvey:          

And you can’t imagine why all the Great Sufi mystics have been so desperately and deeply and profoundly in love with him because they know that he’s the complete human being. No other teacher was a husband. No other teacher would have said that I love women, perfume, and prayer. That’s a complete man.

Thal:                 

Yes yes yes…

Andrew Harvey:          

A complete guy! He loves women. He loves sex.

Thal:                 

Yes he did…

Andrew Harvey:          

The beauty of celebrating with another being and perfume, the mystery and beauty of the world, and then prayer of course it’s the last one. It’s the ultimate one, but nobody lived as a complete life as the prophet. There’s never been as a complete life as him.

Thal:                 

I believe that. Thank you.

Andrew Harvey:          

You know that. That’s why you’re a Sufi. You’re so lucky to love the Prophet so much. What a life? So terrible! His life.

Thal:                 

So misunderstood…up to this day…

Andrew Harvey:          

Oh God, yes. You know that he is still available to those who love him…you never see him but you can…some people see him, but I’ve never seen him, but I have felt him…

Thal:                 

I felt him…Some people see him, some people see him like even in like during the day, you know, and have conversations with him, but

Andrew Harvey:          

I’m looking forward to that particular…

Thal:                 

Me too… I am looking forward to it.

Andrew Harvey:          

So glad you like that…that is such a blessing.

Thal:                 

I’m just happy to be talking to you today.

Andrew Harvey:          

Me too. But people always say to me, why do you say peace be upon him? Are you kidding? I would never talk about the prophet without honoring Islam in that way…it will be very vulgar. People have no conception of this. The ‘adab (good character) you need towards the holy ones.

Thal:                 

The holy ones from all traditions.

Andrew Harvey:          

Yeah, but he would be the first one to say that. He said it again and again and again in the Quran. Nobody loved Jesus more than the prophet. Nobody loved Isiah, Moses, and Noah and all the great ones. He says there are 100,000 teachers who have no names who are great prophets and great saints. Women, men of all religions, shamans. It is much more than a religion, Islam. It’s a vision of integrated wholeness. It’s the most balanced vision ever given humanity. It has shadows, obviously. I mean homophobia, misogyny, and all the rest of it, but they were not his shadows

Thal:                 

These are the shadows of dogma.

Andrew Harvey:          

And the boys club and all the rest of it…

Thal:                 

I hear ya…

Andrew Harvey:         

 Rumi doesn’t have those shadows. The Great Sufi mystical saints don’t have those shadows.

Thal:                 

That’s why they were killed someone like Al-Hallaj was killed by the orthodoxy.

Andrew Harvey:          

Yeah. All. Can you imagine what happened with Rumi? Can you imagine? They were freaked out. He started dancing with this old man in the middle of Konya after giving good speeches and quoting from the Quran. They thought he’d gone completely crazy or even worse. Finally they had to face that he was radiant with God. You know? Absolutely. That’s always the way, isn’t it.

Adrian:             

Andrew…I feel like we want to do this in service of Kabir, right? I mean this is one of the major reasons why we feel so excited and grateful that you agreed to come on. And this is just the beginning of your book launch, essentially, and last night, I mean, what we experienced with the poetry, I mean, it was so moving. I am still raw from that experience…still processing.

Andrew Harvey:           

When you say raw, I love that word. What you mean by raw? What does raw feel like inside you? You know right now, let’s have a conversation. I’d love to. This is not me talking about Kabir, I want to talk with you. In the Kabir field.

Adrian:             

To me raw are new feelings. So it’s feelings that I’m not familiar with and there is an element of fear, like what is this? I’m confused, but it’s making me tune inward and try to hang onto it, try to be curious. And so that’s raw sensations in my body and these feelings that are all commingled. You know, it’s hard to put words to it that that’s raw for me. It’s pre-language.

Andrew Harvey:          

It is pre-language, why do you need to put words to it? Why do you need to? That’s the danger of trying too soon to get clear, not allowing the radiant confusion to breed its own revelation. To change one. It’s just like falling in love, isn’t it, with the person. It’s scary when you meet someone you can’t avoid you can’t categorize, you can’t not love, and you know that once you’ve made that commitment to love, it’s going to change your life. It’s not just going to change your mind. It is going to change your heart, your body, your whole trajectory. And that’s what happens when you meet someone like Kabir.

Adrian:            

 It feels naked. That’s the other word. Yeah. You mentioned that last evening…is to shed the costumes to shed the house, the houses and to walk in the open.

Thal:                 

Even the process of us making the podcast is really about coming out in the open. I’m waking up from my own journey where, you know, I went into the comfort of dogma for a few years and it just didn’t work because it wasn’t who I am and I was never that before. Adrian is coming also from his perspective. A more secular perspective, you know, and he’s waking up to the mystic in him. That’s what I see and you know, we belong to a generation that’s, you know, confused.

Andrew Harvey:          

Well, how could you not be confused? Everyone’s confused at this moment because we’re in the moment of trauma and terrible chaos, and terrible suffering. The possibilities of human extinction are real. How could that not be radically confusing? If you trust at the deepest level, that radical confusion can give birth to the new, a wholly new level of tenderness and vibrant openness and communion, which is a source of tremendous meaning and joy.

Thal:                 

What we’ve been doing after every episode…I’ve been writing poetry. I would say all my life. More recently I’ve been sharing them through the podcast after every episode, and I told Adrian this three days ago, I told him I feel naked whenever I write a poem, I feel naked and I’m okay with it now and it is what it is…

Andrew Harvey:          

Don’t you think being naked is the greatest possible gift you give to anybody.

Thal:                 

That’s true.

Andrew Harvey:          

That’s the greatest gift.

Thal:                 

It is also being alive.

Andrew Harvey:          

alive. When you think about how you make the greatest friends of your life, it’s not by being brilliant, it’s not by being perfect. It’s by those moments of heart, rending fragility and expansion that suddenly snares another heart. Right?

Thal:                 

Absolutely.

Andrew Harvey:           

That’s it. That’s the whole of life.

Adrian:             

Yeah. Do we want to get into it, right?

Andrew Harvey:          

Yeah. We are into it. Just keep this in the podcast. I love this because this is our field. You know, I can see your beautiful faces. I can see how much you are so alive and how much you are in pain, at what’s going on, and how much you are not just resting in that pain, but really wanting to understand beyond words beyond concept what this pain might mean. For me, what this pain is the pain of childbirth. It’s the pain of birth. It’s what happens to a woman when she gives birth is monumental. It’s being possessed by this birthing force that looks, from a man’s point of view, and I’ve seen it so many people give birth, looks like she’s being torn apart, but she’s not being torn apart. She’s been given the supreme privilege of being a gateway for the birth of a new being, and this is what’s happening in all of our psyches at the moment. Everything we think of as real, it’s being dismembered, it’s being burned down, not to punish us, but to release us from these terrible, horrible dominator paradigm structures which are quite clearly annihilating life, so we’re being born into life and that’s a scary, confusing process, but if you stay with it and trust and surrender and listen to the voices of the ones who really know this process, then something amazing gets born in you and with that, the passion to change, everything gets born in you. Together. We can do this.

Adrian:             

Thank you, Andrew. Thank you for that. I think. I think we’re both actually really wanting to hear how how you got drawn to Kabir to begin with. We know that in writing it was quite the experience. You lived with him. You mentioned multiple times that you were living with him. He was inside of you.

Andrew Harvey:          

I’ve loved Kabir all my life. I’m 66 years old now and I met Kabir first when I was 25 in Benares the city where he lived, which is called Varanasi now, but I can’t help calling it Benaras because for me the word Benaras means something exotic glorious and it is like an unfolding of purple silk, Benares. A very holy word and it’s a very wild, holy, gorgeous, terrible, amazing city, which is like a naked representation of every kind of opposites in life. I went there first when I was 25 and I was overwhelmingly grateful to be in a place as mad as my own psyche. I just recognized finally that there was a place on earth as gorgeous and crazy as what I was beginning to understand. The mystery really is… So I was out of my mind with joy and I used to go in the early morning to the temples and sit there and just look and breathe everything in. The perfumes, the smells, the amazing adoration of people. One day I was there and this old man came in this beautiful old Saddhu in rags but with the face like an eagle, and he started to sing and I can’t begin to describe singing, but it wasn’t pretty. It wasn’t manicured. It was wild singing wild, holy gorgeous singing. The whole place shook.I plucked up my courage after he finished and I said, “what were you singing?” He spoke broken English and I speak some Hindi. Between my broken Hindi and his broken English, we communicated totally because we were in the space. He said, I am singing, “my beloved.” I said, “who is your beloved?” “Kabir! Kabir! Kabir! How can you sing anything else but Kabir when you’ve met Kabir. Kabir changes everything. Then he translated for me what he was singing and he was singing the song, “the beloved is in me, the beloved is in you as life is hidden in …(inaudible) rubble your pride my friend, and look for the beloved within you.” Just those words pierced me and I realized, oh my God, I have not heard of Kabir but that began a passionate search to find out everything about Kabir. I read everything in different languages. I speak French and Italian and German and some Hindi. I read all of the amazing new books that were coming out on Kabir that are incredible work done by, especially by two great women scholars, Charlotte Vaudeville, who wrote the most astonishing book on Kabir. Every single aspect of Kabir’s genius is explored by her with razor clear, deeply radical, wonderfully precise scholarship. Then there’s this other wonderful woman translator, Linda Hess, who has exactly the same degree of excellence in her work, but who also plunged deeply and mystically into the Kabir tradition and spent a lot of time with one of the greatest Kabiri singers, Kumar Gandharva, and if you’re listening out there, go on to Youtube, get hold of Kumar Gandharva. He is simply the greatest singer that India has produced in the last hundred years. He’s left, unfortunately, but his voice remains. So I plunged into Kabir from a scholarly point of view, from the translations that were coming out. Robert Bly is magnificent translations, a lot of Bly in there. He’s not really being very faithful to Kabir, but he did a marvelous job of bringing the perfume of the Kabiri spirit, but at the time I was obsessed with Rumi and I still remain obsessed with Rumi because Rumi was my first intense beloved. I just. I’ve never gotten over Rumi. I spent 40 years writing books on Rumi, recreating Rumi, going to Konya, plunging into the depths of Sufism, and Rumi is such an amazing universal poet. He is the other great universal poet with Kabir and the two of them are brothers that you can’t compare Everest and Kanchenjunga. They’re both supremely great mountains of brilliance and beauty, so I didn’t get around to really confronting my passion for Kabir until about seven or eight years ago when it suddenly became clear to me that the reason why I hadn’t done any deep work on Kabir because I myself wasn’t ready. You have to be ready for Kabir because Kabir is so fierce, so demanding, so real. I had to become real before or half real before I could dare to step into attempting to transmit him in English and then something quite dramatic happened in my life, which is I went through one of my periodic fits of bankruptcy, so because I’ve lived a pretty wild life as a teacher, I haven’t been user-friendly. I’ve tried to tell the truth because I know I’ve known for 20 years that we were in an apocalyptic situation. If you’re teaching in America, that’s the last thing people want to hear. They just want to hear everything is fine and it’s all going to go well. It’s not going to go well. We’re gonna have to die to be reborn and in this time I was compelled and it was one of the great graces of my life to go to live in a log cabin in Arkansas and I paid $300 a month for this log cabin and I thought more of my friends thought, oh my God, Andrew is now going off the deep end and we’ll never see him again. He’s a brave madmen, but bye bye Andrew. But in fact, what happened with that, that was the best thing that ever happened. I lived in simplicity with the deer and the hills of our Arkansas and the wonderful raw non-religious people who are just the best people you can possibly imagine. I was grounded and earthed in a way that had never happened to me before. I was humbled, radically humbled. At that moment he could enter because I’d been bashed enough, battered enough, reduced enough, humbled enough to be able to hear the unmistakable intensity of truth in him, and then something absolutely extraordinary started to unfold is that I really started to dream about him, to feel him around. I realized that in meeting Kabir at that time in my life, I was meeting the very, very best of myself. That the very, very best of myself would now be honed and deeply transformed by this encounter with this lion of truth. It was the most thrilling experience of my life. It unleashed an immense torrent of creativity in me because I started to write as Kabir. I’ve written hundreds and hundreds of poems in Kabir’s voice with my voice mingling his. I haven’t printed them and haven’t published them because I wanted my first offering to be about him because it would be an act of monstrous arrogance even for someone like myself to come out with my Kabir poems without spending time on really presenting the genius that gave birth to whatever I was able to say in this field, and what happened was that when you commune at that level of passion with a great being, you enter into the most intense, imaginable, sacred friendship with that being. This is known in all the mystical systems. The Catholics call this the communion of saints, the Saints are not in Heaven or whatever heaven is. The saints are all around. They’re still alive, they’re vibrant, and if you commune with a saint out of a particular deep love for that saint that saint will start to appear to you, talk to you, give you directions, guide you, you know them from within you. This is a tremendous mystery, but it’s a mystery that mystics of all traditions have experienced. And what I experienced was Kabir became my friend myself, my voice, my heart, and it was very scary sometimes because you can’t approach the field of Kabir without being exposed to yourself. And all of us have so much further to go. And when you’re in the field as clean and as incisive as the Kabir field is… You’re faced all the time with your corruption, your stupidity, your sloth, your vanity, in my case your desire for celebrity, all the stuff that swirls around in every human psyche, befriending someone like Kabir means that you cannot anymore befriend your own darkness. It becomes intolerable to you. There’s a real sacrifice involved when you come into this kind of field. But the rewards for making that sacrifice is so astounding because not only does he pitch that view and hits you over the head, he also got an arm around your shoulder saying, I know what you’re going through. I’ve been through it. It’s terrible facing who you really are. But you’ll discover through this facing who you really Are! That will make everything worthwhile. This was a most extraordinary process and out of that came my book, Turn Me To Gold and it couldn’t have come in any other way. I wasn’t ready to do it earlier on. I had to be cooked by Rumi, to be ready to be eaten by Kabir and I had to go through in solitude in that log cabin, this turbulent astounding relationship with him to be able to be guided by him to present the book in exactly the way that the Kabir field exactly wanted as a musical symphony in four parts that could open up all of the different aspects of the field to divine embodiment. It was an amazing journey. It’s not over. I’m just beginning a new journey now going out talking to people like you about the journey, that’s a new extension of this field. Does make sense to you? Does it ring true?

Thal:                 

I’m just thinking also about something that you had mentioned last night when you were talking about the book and about the two energies that are mentioned in the Sufi tradition, which come from the Divine name, which is the Jalal energy, which is the energy of awe and breaking the ego and the Jamal Energy, which is the beauty and the tenderness, which is Rumi, and that’s where you were cooked for you to get ready for Kabir as you had mentioned. I just want to relate or mention the role of poetry and the role of poet as medium and what does that mean to you?

Andrew Harvey:          

Well, what does it mean to you? You are a poet. I want you to hear what it means to you.

Thal:                 

Everything! I feel that poetry and the poet are mere mediums of energy. It’s like the connection between the sacred and the profane, the connection between the transcendent and the imminent. It’s only through poetry that we can contain the ineffable.

Andrew Harvey:         

Yes. How beautiful? I can’t speak after that, but I think that we’re in a time where religious dogma no longer captures us. I think we are in a time when people telling us what to do and how to do it, laying down laws is frankly horse manure to us because we’ve seen how many of those laws are not Divinely inspired but manmade and very crippling and I think we’re in the time of the birth of the universal mysticism that goes directly to the source that once the skinny about reality that once the essential disciplines but doesn’t want to be contained in any one dogmatic context and poetry is by definition non-dogmatic. It’s personal. It’s born out of the depths of the unique personal ecstatic experience, especially when it’s mystical poetry, and because it’s personal it transcends dogma, because it’s personal it speaks directly from the enraptured heart to the enraptured heart. It speaks above all the language of love and the language of love is the language which we are all, whether we are atheists or non-atheists or wiccans.

Thal:                 

Whatever the label is?

Andrew Harvey:          

What we’re famished for is that language of love and every humanbeing when they hear Rumi is thrilled because Rumi speaks as an ecstatic lover. Anyone whose ever known how love expands you will hear in Rumi, even if they don’t understand the kind and the vast of love that Rumi speaks about, they’ll know, oh my God, this guy is a lover and I have a lover within me, and I want that lover to grow because I know that lover is the best of me and the most noble of me and the most wildly deeply intelligent. Pardon me, much more intelligent than my brain.So poetry has that unique power to take us into the field beyond good and evil that is love in all of its majesty and power and beauty. That’s why poetry, mystical poetry now is coming back in such intense way because we’re being guided into a universal mysticism whose heart isn’t laws and dogmas, but burning rapturous, incisive, vibrant, violently beautiful and pure poetry, so the great new texts of the new universal mysticism will be the great mystical poets, will be Rumi, will be Kabir, will be Hildegard of Bingen, and Hadewijch of Antwerp.

Thal:                 

William Blake.

Andrew Harvey:          

William Blake, absolutely…and Rabiah. These are the great sacred, humble prophets of this new universal mysticism. This has always been known in the great sacred cultures. In India there are the Sanskrit Brahmans who love to quote the text, but what did the people of India love? They loved the songs of Kabir. What does the shopkeepers sing? They sing the upanishads. They sing Kabir because they want the raw pure naked, they need it because they’re living very difficult lives and sometimes it’s threatened lives and talking to them about the upanishads is not going to help them. What will help them in the most visceral way is that raw pure, absolutely bare poetry of a great mystic like Kabir. Who is their buddy. They can feel him go through everything that they’re going through and still goes through and they can vibrate with that. So you if you’re in India, in Benaras, for example, I remember one morning relatively recently going to the shop around the corner where I used buy my soap with this wonderful old woman and we became great friends and she in the morning would sing me Kabir. She was a very poor and she would tell me, you know, Kabir has helped me live my life. I know that everything is God. I know I have no money. I may not have money for my evening meal, but because of my singing of this magnificent holy brother of mine that is Kabir, I can get through anything. She told me that and that’s what so many people experience. Poetry has that divine gift.

Thal:                 

I was just listening to the late Mary Oliver, I think she just passed away two weeks ago or three. She said something about the role of religion. She said, well, religion is there to remind us that we cannot rely on our will but then the dogma comes in and flattens out everything and reduce it and it’s reductionistic much like a very staunch secular view is also reductionistic. Anything that is one side of something is reductionistic and…

Andrew Harvey:          

Poetry is all sides altogether.

Thal:                 

Exactly. Exactly.

Andrew Harvey:          

In a human experience that is non-judgmental that accepts all the pain and all the joy. That accepts all the struggle.

Thal:                 

The paradox of life.

Andrew Harvey:          

The great mystical poets are our best friends, they are the best friends you could ever have on your life journey.

Thal:                 

It’s where I go to when I feel alone. It is my world. I love it. Mystical poetry.

Andrew Harvey:           

Well you know that you’re not alone when you are sitting with Rumi or Kabir. These guys have been through everything. They’re with you right now and they will give you the consolation, the wisdom you need. In Iran, you know, they love Hafiz most of all. They say Hafez is the greatest of all the poets, even greater than Rumi.

Thal:                 

He’s powerful.

Andrew Harvey:          

What they do when they’re feeling miserable or alone or in front of a very difficult judgement, they pray and they open Hafiz. They’ve discovered that it is some kind of an oracle.

Thal:                 

I actually do that trick too.

Andrew Harvey:          

I do it with Rumi and Hafiz and it never fails. They are there present completely as a complete divine human beings, speaking intimately to us, and they can help us in ways that even the greatest scriptures can’t help us.

Thal:                 

I believe that…

Andrew Harvey:          

It’s all about friendship now you see, I think that when we really understand as human beings what friendship is capable of, what great friends can feel and do and experience together.

Thal:                 

Sacred friendship.

Andrew Harvey:          

We understand the full glory of what the poets ask because truly they are our deepest secret friends.

Thal:                 

In fact, that is one of the main messages within the Sufi tradition. The sacred aspect of friendship and communion and sisterhood and brotherhood and all of it.

Andrew Harvey:          

Isn’t that the deepest meaning of Shams and Rumi’s relationship? Nobody really understood their relationahip. Some thought they were physical lovers. That’s not true. Some foods that they were just buddies. That’s not true. Some people thought they were master and disciple. That’s not true because they were each master and each disciple. All of those previous definitions vanish when the true glory of friendship appears because they clearly loved each other, heart, mind, soul, and body. It was total love, but it was love that vibrated from the depths of the heart and included the whole field of the being. That’s friendship and we we’re just beginning to begin to begin to begin to understand what friendship can be.

Thal:                 

The tip of the iceberg,

Andrew Harvey:          

How wonderful, yeah. This is what awaits the human race if we can only stop committing suicide and matricide. It awaits the revelation of universal mysticism, the revelation of fundamental bond of sacred friendship between all beings gay, straight, lesbian acrobats, drunks in the street. Who cares? They’re human. They’re alive. They are our friends potentially.

Thal:                 

It’s fear. It’s ego. It’s, ah! These are the things that need to break.

Andrew Harvey:         

It’s fear because you might suddenly find yourself embracing a dirty old drunk by the side of the street as your long lost brother that would scare you, but that’s truth. Jesus is talking about the same kind of love. He says, “greater Love hath no man than the man who lays down his life for his friends.” That’s the whole meaning of the mystical path to lay down your life for your friends so that your friends can taste the splendor of God through the life you lead and come into their own unique splendor and live it out with their own unique joy and then you can encourage them in that they can tune you and you can tune them and a lot of fun is had by all. We’re frightened of joy more than anything else. You know that’s what’s so scary. People say that they are scared of suffering, but if you really look deeply into yourself, what you’re really scared of is love and really scared of joy.

You might find yourself loving all kinds of unlikely people, even people who you before you thought were your enemies or just having mad destructive views. You might suddenly find yourself feeling overwhelming compassion for Trump, for example, which will deeply annoy some of your liberal friends. It’s actually part of the geat beauty.

Thal:                 

It is part of the paradox.

Andrew Harvey:          

It is part of the paradox, but it doesn’t mean you hate him. You oppose his policies but it does not mean you hate him because you see the pain behind all the madness that can destroy the planet, but it doesn’t mean you have to hate him. Why should you hate him? Hate the policies, do everything you can to unnerve those policies, but never find yourself in the place of hating any humanbeing because they are still, however battered, the image of God. You have to keep that as a lover of God … that truth.

Thal:                 

Keeping in mind our listeners, I’m thinking when we’re talking about this type of energy and being sort of possessed with this radical love.

Andrew Harvey:          

Yes, yes! I love that…possessed by this radical love. She speaks as a poet. That’s why poetry is so important because you said it in a phrase. That’s the intensity of being, isn’t it?

Thal:                 

Thank you. I have to say it. I’m going to say it today, sometimes it’s my own fear and you know how I’m perceived by others that I sometimes have to tone down that side of myself. Working with Adrian, right now, I’m slowly not going to tone down that down anymore.

Andrew Harvey:        

This is the time of the empowered women. We need women like you to speak fearlessly, to sing out your truth. I need it. Every single man, however, evolved on this planet, needs to hear the voices of wild, empowered holy women. Be one of those. Don’t be frightened. I will tell you a story, which is one of my favorite stories, happened to me when I lived in Paris. I had a great friend. She was a Countess and she was a Coke addict, unfortunately, but she was the most luminous, wild, fearless person I ever knew. She was in her seventies and I was in my thirties. We were inseparable and she would take me to these glamorous dinner parties. Her favorite thing was to go off into the bathroom, smoke some coke, and come back to the table and tell everybody the truth about themselves at the table. Appallingly truthful.

One day the whole of France was sitting around this table. I mean the President was there, Yves Saint Laurent was there. It was a very grand party. She had known them all their lives, so she knew what a corrupt load of wankers they really were those people. She went from one to the other and she just said, you have been so selfish and narcissistic in the way… Look at the world, it’s burning because all you’ve wanted is power. She was possessed by sacred rage. It was tearing her apart. She went around and then the guy next to her who happened to be the head of (inaduble) said, “Helen, you are too much.” She quick as a whip said, “patron and you have never been enough.”

Thal:                 

Those words were used as a form of abuse, really. “You are too much.”

Andrew Harvey:          

She was not too much. She was agonizingly struggling to be totally real. She was on a quest for total authenticity and that made her to me heart-rendingly beautiful and a great, great teacher and I didn’t judge her. If I had been inside her mind, I would have been dead 30 years before. It was amazing that she was alive with what she knew and she loved me passionately. I loved her passionately. Seeing the way in which somebody who is possessed of radical love is treated made me really make the choice that I would never, ever silence my passion. You have to choose the passion of the truth and you have to let the chips fall where they may because what you’ll discover is that the real people will come to you.

Thal:                 

I am already seeing that…

Andrew Harvey:          

If you have five real friends in this world who are authentic, that’s everything. You don’t need 100 acquaintances. You need those five and they can’t come to you until you’re completely real yourself or trying to be. That’s the great truth. You know that, don’t you?

Thal:                 

I do, actually.

Andrew Harvey:          

Yeah, so everybody out there who is frightened about being their real selves. Stop it! It’s time to tell the truth. It’s time, do it with dignity, do it with courtesy, but do it because even when people resist you, if you do it with force of your whole personality, you will shift something in them and three or four days later or maybe five years later, they will shift. At this time we can’t afford not to be radically passionate about life because the world is being destroyed and we have to speak up and we have to be ragged and we have to call people to account. We have to most of all call ourselves to account and we have to engage together in the sometimes painful, difficult, uncomfortable process because we’ve all got to get much more honest, much more real to get going together. Just do whatever we can to stop the human race. Committing suicide and matricide.

Thal:                 

We’ve done the physical destruction, the environmental destruction, destruction of ideas, and now it’s our psyche that we need to salvage.

Andrew Harvey:           

Well, Jung said the history of humanity is hanging by a thread and that thread is the the thread of the psyche. Well, that thread is fraying and now tiny little bits are left and the frays altogether, the world’s finished. Every animal will die. Every plant will die. We will die. The seas by 2049, the major scientists say, will have no, no fish in it. I was talking to a very important, I wish I could say his name, but it was a private conversation last week. He’s probably one of the world’s leading scientists with the men’s (inaudible) and he said that the recent report of the UN, which said we have 12 years is not true. We have seven years and a lot of information is being deliberately kept back from the public, the powers that have control over the the information are terrified that when the public really knows what’s really happening, there would be madness and riots on the street. That’s where we really are. We’re about to go through a massive 50 gigaton burst of methane from from the melting Tundra in the Arctic, which has been keeping back a lot of methane gas and it’s now warming up and it’s going to release more carbon dioxide into the atmosphere than has been released since the beginning of the industrial revolution. We have no idea what’s this going to mean? This is very sobering, but my belief is that we don’t need to be paralyzed by this. We need to be activated by this and not by rage, but by joy, by love for everybody, our friends, our family, animals, and that love has to be experienced in rawness and then lived in sacred action. That’s why I’ve devoted my life to what I call sacred activism, to help people experience this deep, embodied, passionate, raw love that is divine love for each other and for everything, and then realize that love is not completely real until its become active.

 If you weren’t doing this podcast out of pure love, you wouldn’t be real. You’d still be having emotions and indulging in your emotions, but you have put yourself out there so bravely. That’s sacred activism, that’s stepping up that’s saying, not in a bossy way, saying that we care and we want you to care and we want to hear how you care. We want to help you care more and so that we can care more so that we can come together more to do more together to really wake the human race up and give people hope and energy in a time of despair so that instead of being paralyzed by this exploding crisis, we use it in the deepest sense to get real, get down and get going. So there’s a huge birth taking place and we’re part of it. You and I and the people listening to this are a part a bit, and we can do this together.

Adrian:             

Can you talk more about radical embodiment because it is a thread that I’m hearing in Kabir’s poetry and what you’re saying right now, this is not intellectualizing our way out of the mess it is.

Andrew Harvey:          

That’s what created the mess.

Adrian:             

It is not an ascending path. It sounds like it’s a dissent. It’s coming down.

Andrew Harvey:          

It’s both.

Adrian:             

What I was just going to say, what I heard last night when you were talking was to experience the ecstasy, but to bring that into the ordinary life and that sort of that downward energy, bringing it into the body and through our actions is how we’re going to be able to get get through to the next, to the other side of this evolution.

Andrew Harvey:          

That’s so beautiful. I’m so glad you heard that because what’s happening in a lot of New Age spirituality is that we are using the ecstasy as a drug to leave being here to get out of being here and to go to some other where this is disembodied ungrounded spirituality. It’s actually a higher form of narcissism and it’s very dangerous because it’s using the highest experience for not the highest ends, the real way as it’s been shown us, by the great prophets and the great embodied divine mystics such as Jesus and the Prophet, peace be upon him, and Rumi and Kabir and other great women masters like Teresa of Avila. The real way is to allow yourself to experience that ecstasy, and be taken to the source of life itself that is ecstatic love and ecstatic joy and then through opening completely allow that ecstasy and that joy to irradiate your mind, to come down into the depths of your heart and open your heart completely to its presence in every living thing and every flea and in every stone.

 The ecstatic light is actually the source of everything. Everything is crystalized light energy and this is what quantum physics is discovering now, so science and mysticism are revealing the same paradoxical, amazing reality that everything is energy, light-energy, then, and this is what the embodied mystics tell us, the great masters of embodiment and Jesus is one of them, and the Prophet, peace be upon him is another and Kabir is another. Then it needs to come down into the depths of the body itself because the body is secretly crystalized light-energy also in experiencing that in the depths of your cells, grounds you, makes you strong, makes you powerful, makes your love real and that love cannot be completely real and completely the embodied until it is acted on in a passion for justice and in a compassionate passion of love towards all beings.

Not just human beings, but animals, insects, everything. That’s the complete human divine experience and that’s the one that is struggling to be born against immense odds on the earth and actually our crisis which seems so horrific and is so horrific, is perfectly designed to be the birthing canal of this because nothing else could possibly work in our situation. When you’re in increasingly that state of radical love embodied in the mind and embodied in the heart, embodied in the body and embodied in real sacred action based on your own deepest talents and your deepest abilities. You don’t care whether somebody is a Muslim or a Hindu or a Christian or an atheist. You don’t care whether they agree with you or don’t agree with you. You all you see is that the world is dying and that you need to put love into action in your own unique way with your great heart friends and that that’s the only game in town.

That is the most important possible thing that you could do with your life at this moment. When you get that, it actually gives you enormous joy and peace and strength and passionate energy. Even in the middle of all of this despair, so you instead of being somebody who gets despairing and paralyzed and adds to the problem, you become someone who takes water to the thirsty, who can go to visit a friend who’s going through a massive depression because they feel that they can’t do anything and say, don’t be fooled by the fact that the world may be ending. Don’t let that depress you. Don’t let that stop you discovering who you really are. Join me. We’ll do it together. I’ll help you get catch flame with eternal joy and we will do something fabulous together and we’ll make creative projects together and even if it all goes and it might, we won’t have wasted our lives because we will have lived our lives in joy and peace and resilience and passion and really found meaning and above all have loved each other, truly.

Thal:                 

In a way that’s piercing through the veils to get to the gem…living that way. When we are talking about sacred activism and spiritual bypass in the New Age movements. It’s also important to recognize that there is a lot of problematic things happening within activism too.

Andrew Harvey:          

What would you say they were?

Thal:                 

Well, it’s the sacred aspect is missing.

Andrew Harvey:          

What does that lead to in your opinion in activism?

Thal:                 

A lot of reactionary behavior and a lot of ego inflation.

Adrian:             

And not acknowledging the shadow or integrating it because that is where the gifts come from. I mean, we talk about the light coming out of the darkness. But if we don’t acknowledge it, if you don’t even talk about it, then we’re being very naive about the situation.

Andrew Harvey:          

And we’re in a way indulging in self-righteousness and making ourselves feel good by denouncing other people. You know, the traditional mystics have had the shadow of wanting to go off into the light and not be here in relationships and responsibilities to the real world. That’s been the shadow of all the patriarchal mystical systems. The activists as they’ve evolved have had the shadow of self-righteousness, of blaming others, of wanting to feel above the others because they’ve got the real skinny and everybody else is just hopelessly deluded. Both are afflicted by profound kinds of narcissism and very dangerous kinds of narcissism. The danger of the mystics narcissism is that it is drained this world a bit sacred significance. It’s demonized the body. It’s made relationships part of illusion instead of the place where we learn so many wholly and important truths. It’s made a world in which animals are treated as inferior to us because we’re supposed to have the superior consciousness with the disastrous genocidal results that we see.

That’s the responsibility of those mystics who got addicted to transcendence, but the activists have also got a tremendous responsibility for the darkness of this situation because instead of really staying humble and loving and compassionate while pursuing just courses, they have been very often beacons of ego-ridden jostling amongst themselves and also deep self-righteousness so that they put off people who would otherwise want to join them. Who would want to be somebody who is self-righteously demonizing and denouncing every other human being that doesn’t agree with them. Every normal human being knows that that’s not the way so activists are their own worst enemies. The amazing thing is, and this is where sacred activism is so important, is that you if bring the best of the mystic, which is the passion to unite with God, it’s source of reality together with the best of the activist, the passion to uphold the truth of justice, which is a noble holy passion and don’t deny activists that they do have that.If you bring them together, then you have a whole truth. You have people who are deeply grounded and rooted in the sacred, humbled before the sacred, deeply aware that they need to constantly vigilantly work on their selfishness, on their self-rightousneess, on their desire to demonize others instead of recognizing others as aspects of themselves and you have people committed to putting the sacred into living wise, focused radical action. And that’s the new kind of human being that’s been born now, and it cannot be born either through the old mystic way or through the old activist way, but it can be born through this mysterious fusion that happens and we’ve seen it work. Gandhi was that kind of person. Gandhi’s genius was that he didn’t demonize the British. He knew exactly how dangerous the British were… I come from an imperial family. I was born to an imperial family, I have got the scars on my psyche to prove it, so I know how dangerous the British were…

Gandhi’s genius was to say to the British, I honor you, I don’t hate you. I just think that you’re not living up to your own deepest principles because you’re telling us that you’re the apostles of democracy and freedom. Whereas the democracy in India and where is the freedom in India? So that was amazing because the British would have been a lot more comfortable had Gandhi been demonizing them all the time. He made them deeply uncomfortable because he held up a mirror to them of their own deepest principles. And then very tenderly said to them, I honor these principles, they’ve changed my life, but where are you acting on them? And he then brought in a whole extraordinary system of the profound sacred activism, which was called Satyagraha, soul force, which was a commitment to nonviolent resistance. It wasn’t just sitting passive and praying.

They would go out in the streets and risk their lives, but they would never fight back because they knew that fighting back could activate tremendous violence and that violence of any kind would lead to more violence. Over time, this astounding practice unseated the biggest empire, the most powerful empire the world has ever seen. So it works. We’ve seen it work. We saw it work too with Martin Luther King. Martin Luther King said to the whites, are you crazy? You’re supposed to believe in Jesus and you’re treating your black brothers and sisters like worse than dogs. He said to the blacks, I know why you hate the whites, but the way through is never the way of hatred. We have to love our white brothers. Both resisted him until they realized that he was holding the mystery of the authentic Christ consciousness. That’s why Martin Luther King has been such a source of inspiration and that’s why America hasn’t yet there may still descend into a bloodbath because Martin said to both sides, we’ve got to go forward to honoring the truth of love in action. We’ve seen it work in Poland with Lech Wałęsa, nonviolent resistance fortified by deep spiritual strength works to unseat terrifying difficulties if it’s put into practice by people who are disciplined, humble, constantly working on their shadow, and constantly constantly opening up deeper and deeper to divine love. This is the only thing that can work in a situation like ours for the simple reason is that the dark has all the power. If we get violent and crazy, they’ll just shoot us in the streets. They will get rid of us in a second. Why wouldn’t they but if we rise from the depths of our truth together, loving, even the perpetrators and the tyrants, even extending love and hope and possibility to them, constantly saying to them, why do you choose this miserable lust for power when you could be living the life of the illumined heart? Why do you choose your Malibu mansions with their fortresses when you could actually be dancing with us in the dance halls of ecstasy? Why do you choose a narrow life rooted in selfishness when you could live the life of expansive truth?

Thal:                 

Andrew, you bring up so many important issues that are at the heart of what’s happening nowadays. I don’t even know what to say but there are so many things that are charged out there. As we’re speaking, people are having twitter wars, Internet wars, on the issues that you brought up. I think part of the path is shadow work, not I think, it is part of the path. Shadow work includes also the psychological aspects. In a way it’s the merging of the psychological and the spiritual. We have to recognize, too, that people do carry their individual traumas and if people don’t address those individual wounds then they create some of the thickest veils and it’s just wallowing in narcissistic wounding and just perpetuating…

Andrew Harvey:          

Haven’t you done that yourself?

Thal:                 

I have and that’s where I’m speaking from.

Andrew Harvey:          

I think it’s important to say that yes, I think you we all are attempted, like you said, you had this period of dogma.

Thal:                 

Exactly.

Andrew Harvey:          

That is because you were wounded and you needed certainty and you needed to get out of your wound too soon.

Thal:                 

I needed clear answers and it was a comfort.

Adrian:             

We were just saying this morning that at the time was a shield for you, protected you, but it became your prison. There has to be a time that we are ready to let go of the shield.

Andrew Harvey:          

Maybe that is what you’re feeling too in this rawness, you’ve had the shield of secularism and now that’s going. We all have shields and they’re created out of our trauma. There is this amazing teacher. I hope you know him. His name is Jeff Brown and he’s just about to produce this incredible book called Grounded Spirituality. And Jeff has an extraordinarily rich and detailed and profound vision of how we really need to pay attention to the traumas and the physical blocks that make us addicts of certainty that is disembodied because otherwise we will never get to a place where we’re just human beings, ragged human beings in an endless process, helping each other through love and through communion grow in this amazing experience. It is divine human life, but that takes a lot of work. It is painful to confront the pain of the past and it’s very humbling journey.

Thal:                 

I also want to mention that we need to recognize that what we’re talking about is not reaching a perfected states. That we will still care about the little things in life and that that’s part of the path. It’s okay to want the finer things in life and that’s okay too…It doesn’t mean rejecting everything.

Andrew Harvey:

Oh no, that’s part of the patriarchal separation too, isn’t it? It’s more than that. We are looking for wholeness, not perfection, only the Divine is perfect. As Jesus says, you know, as someone is trying to praise him. He says, oh, stop it. You know, my righteousness is as rags before the Lord. If you don’t know that about yourself, you know nothing and it makes you pompous and the secret guru trying to lord it over others and that’s catastrophe. In fact, those failings or what we call failings keep us human. When you suddenly want to get crazy and angry at somebody and you stop it, I hope, but then you realize, oh my God, I’ve got to be vigilant on this side of myself and I’ve got to explore more the wound that comes from this.

Thal:                 

Yes, there goes my anger. There goes my jealousy. There it goes like these things don’t go away. It’s part of being human.

Andrew Harvey:          

Yeah, but you do get modest with some of them and you do get really clearer and clearer indications of where they come from on the torment of your past, and that is the beginning of liberation because instead of indulging them, you can look at them compassionately. You could even have compassion for yourself getting angry because you realize that that was because you were locked in a room, or your mother abandoned you, or you were treated like garbage. So you can be the mother to your own self and slowly, slowly those bursts will get less and more and more controlled. You will have, not in a patriarchal way, but in a wave of compassionate restraint of the dark in yourself, and this is a phenomenally, that makes you really happy when that starts to happen and that’s the great advantage of living to an older age. You will think, oh yes, I’m not condemned to be me all the time, I can expand this. I don’t have to act as I did in the past. It can be changed.

Thal:                 

When I tell some of my friends, I actually can’t wait to grow older. I’m hoping that some of my neuroses will diminish as I grew older. Hopefully.

Andrew Harvey:          

And they may become more fruitful. It wouldn’t probably diminish, but you’d be able to be more compassionate towards them.

Thal:                 

Sometimes it feels like when will this go away? When will this anger go away?

Andrew Harvey:          

Anger is not wrong, it is, part of patriarchy has be to say that anger is always wrong. Anger is sometimes the sacred passion in you waking up. It’s conscience speaking. It’s saying, this has got to stop without transformed anger. We can’t go forward if you’re just angry. We demonize, but if we’re not angry, we can be very passive in the face of massive injustice. The trick is to find sacred anger. Jesus was angry at amazing moments when the moment when he overturned the tables in the temple, but his anger was a gift to those who were doing that garbage because he was saying to them, is this what you’re going to try and do? Sell God in the temple? Are you out of your minds? He was trying to help them. He was trying to reach them. He was not trying to kill them. He was trying to break through that complacency and they agreed to reveal the possibilities of a much larger life. I’ve seen the Dalai Lama wildly angry. I mean, you may find that amazing because the Dalai Lama is so beautiful and so, but the Dalai Lama has sacred anger. Every great teacher has to have sacred anger and every great human being has to have it, but it has to purify the sources of that anger, so it becomes the anchor of truth and not the expression of neurosis.

Adrian:             

That’s the title. Turn Me to Gold. The transformation. The dark with the goal emerging from the dark.

Andrew Harvey:          

The great discovery of the path of embodiment is that it isn’t the light alone that does the work. The dark is also sacred. Your lust is sacred. Your anger is sacred, not as they are in their raw state, but as they will be. When lust is turned into a passion to communicate and to reach out, and when anger into a clear voice of truth, calling people to sacred action, that’s the turning to gold so you don’t reject things because you can’t get rid of them. You can amputate these things that belong to you because the light and the dark meant to dance inside you. What you can do through increasing experience of light is strong in clarity so that you will know the difference in your lust between the lust for power and the deep passion to reach out and communicate and you’ll choose the second, not only because it’s the right thing to do, but because it gives you more joy and it doesn’t end in suffering and that is a very subtle operation, but it can happen, but it has to happen through being compassionate to yourself.

 You have to be compassionate to why you are so wounded in some ways, but you have not got to have idiot compassion and just say, well, I was wounded so therefore I have absolutely every right to be as angry as I want. You’ve got to start working with your anger and neither reject it nor embrace embrace it, but work with the mystery to transmute it into golden anger, the golden anger of Rumi, the golden Anger of Shams, the golden anger of the Prophet, peace be upon him, the golden anger of Jesus, the golden gorgeous lion anger of Kabir, my God, that majesty of Jalal, isn’t it?

Adrian:             

I’m mindful of time and I want to make sure that you get a chance to share. We’re mindful also of young listeners, young seekers out there. I mean, right now we’re talking to a living legend and elder, you know, is there anything that you feel is really important that they hear right now? You know, the young generation, the next generation of activists that you would like to get across.

Andrew Harvey:         

I think the most important thing that I could say to you is that the most single important thing that you need is a simple daily spiritual practice because you’re going into the most profound crisis that humanity has ever faced. I believe in you. I believe in the strength in you. I believe in the courage that you have. I think you are amazing, but I want you to be shielded by deep spiritual knowledge. I want you to be balanced in the depth of yourself because you’re going to need that knowledge and that piece and that strength so much because there were many defeats before, great victories and you need to be able to endure those defeats without losing your hope, and you can only endure the defeats that are inevitable because this, the people in power, the dark forces in power and they are dark.They are not going to yield easily.However, right you are…however, beautiful you’re actions are. They going to hold onto power and they are going to be very unscrupulous and contribute to a great deal of suffering. So prepare yourselves without being afraid and know that if you do deep spiritual practice in faith, you will be given unimaginable strength and unimaginable power and over time your deepest impulses will become realized and you will be the pioneers, wholly new way of being and doing everything. If you want the most beautiful possible statement of this, read the Dalai Lama’s new book, which is addressed to you from the holiest man on the planet and the wisest man on the planet who’s really lived through everything. It’s called a call for revolution and it’s a magnificent statement of everything I’ve just said. He says it from the authority of his absolutely amazing life and he says it with such humanity and such belief in you.

I share his belief. The other thing that’s very important, I think now is to realize that it can only be done by all of us together. You need us and we need you. You need to listen to the old ones who’ve been through a great deal and who have certain marvelous things to share with you. I know you must think our generation is catastrophically self-absorbed and I don’t blame you because the baby boomers so signally failed you, but there’ve been some of us who have known this throughout this long orgie of greed and we’ve been fighting in the trenches. Sometimes I’d say very painfully and unsuccessfully for a long time, but some of us have come to a place of resolution and real joy and real knowledge and we have priceless things to share with you and what you have to give us is you. Your beauty, your intelligence, your passion, your incredible desire to change this world and between you and us, we can help and then stick the world wake up. Don’t abandon your elders and don’t go with the boring old elders who think they know anything. Go with the elders who are really on fire with love and wanted to give you the very best of what they know in the very best way because we all are ready to serve you, to help you to be at your feet, to give you everything we know, because we know you’re going to need every bit and what we know to go forward and be the pioneers of the new.

Thal:                 

Uh, wow. Thank you so much.

Adrian:             

Thank you so much. Thank you. Bless your soul.

Andrew Harvey:          

Well, I’m here and I’m not the only one, obviously. There are lots of us out here who are absolutely crazy about you and want to be of help to you and want to learn your language to be of help to you because we were brought up in a different language and are prepared to listen deeply to find out how we can translate what we know into ways that you can get, but we’ve learned timeless truths and it’s cost us our many nights of pain and heartbreak. Don’t waste our suffering because it’s born this in us and we want to give it to you because you are going to go through even greater suffering and you will need it.

Adrian:             

Thank you for paving the way. I mean just to activate, to break the inertia to get things going.

Andrew Harvey:        

That was my job. That was the job of our generation. There are many of us on the planet now and we’re ready to help and it was a terrible job because it’s been the most appalling suffering. Seeing my generation conspired with the death of the planet through greed and vanity and the New Age garbage and all the rest of it, but it has woken some of us up and it has given us absolute resolution to continue until we die as sacred activist. I’m not retired. I’m not giving up even if I’m in a wheelchair, I’ll be speaking truth to power. There’s one nun and I met who’s 95 called sister Rosa. Oh my God.

She’s in a wheelchair and she lives in Ohio and every time everything goes bad in Ohio. Sister Rosa wheels herself to wherever it’s going bad and she talks to the cameras and she just lays it on them. You cannot imagine she’s not giving up. I’m not giving up. I’ll be there until the end with you, so will all of us who are like me and who really know that everything is at stake now, but also everything is possible in an unimaginable way.

Thal:                 

May we be ready to receive.

Andrew Harvey:          

And may we be ready to listen and ready to truly hold all the young in our arms and really instead, not from a position of superiority, but from a position of deep compassion.

Thal:                 

From a position of mutuality?

Andrew Harvey:          

Yeah, we need each other. Yeah. I’m bored to death with the baby boomers and most people between 35 and 70 seem to be dead at this moment. They bought into the corporate mess, so the people are going to really shift this. There are some amazing people in their forties. I must say who are waking up, but it’s the young who are going to carry the horror.

Thal:                 

I am actually 37.

Andrew Harvey:          

You know what I’m talking about. They bought the let’s go out and make money and eat, drink and lets marry. Everything’s ending. We can’t do anything. Let’s just sit in our yachts and watch the world burn. This is a sick and decadent response and I have nothing. There’s nothing you can do with those people except hope God bashes them on the head with a saucepan.

Adrian:             

The bitch slap,

Andrew Harvey:          

Of course God is capable of that, so some of them may wake up and be amazing radicals soon. You never know anything can happen, so nobody’s left out of our embrace, but the chances are slim in the cases of most of the people, but the younger in this state of confusion and despair, which is a very fertile state for true transformation. Now we need to really give them everything we can to help encourage that and the poetry of Kabir and the poetry of Turn Me To Gold and the poetry of Rumi will be such a wonderful way to do that and music and dance, which are the traditional ways anyway, because the Bushman used that. I think young people are much more likely to be inspired by poetry and sacred music and sacred dance, sacred physical activity like sacred yoga than they are to be by people pontificating them about religious platitudes and dogmas. They know all that stuff is horse manure. They want the real stuff. They want the real experience and some of us who are not yet in wheelchairs who can actually help them arrive there. So count me in.

Adrian:             

You can dance in your wheelchair too. So that’s fine.

Andrew Harvey:          

I know I can. I know lots of people who do actually.

Thal:                 

Can you recite one of Kabir’s poems as a closing?

Andrew Harvey:       

Absolutely. What shall I do? I will recite the first poem I ever heard from him, which is still my favorite of his poems actually. Whenever I try to look for a poem in my book, it hides from me. This is Kabir’s game you see. It’s such an incredible poem. Oh, so beautiful. This is for all of you young people. I hope you. I hope you can hear it in such a way that you realize this is truth speaking and this is your truth. This is what if you take the path humbly, you will found out I found this out and I was crazy as a loon when I was young and didn’t believe in anything but life brought me to my knees and I opened my heart to the beloved. The beloved took me to awakening, so if it’s possible for me. It’s possible for you. Go for it.

The beloved is in me and the beloved is in you. As life is hidden in every seed, so rubble your pride, my friend, and look for him within you. When I sit in the heart of his world, a million suns blaze with light, a burning blue seas spreads across the sky. Life’s turmoil, falls quiet. All the stains of suffering wash away. Listen to the unstruck bells and drums. Love is here. Plunge into its rapture. Rain’s poured down without water rivers are streams of light. How could I ever express how blessed I feel to revel in such fast ecstasy in my own body? This is the music of soul and soul meeting, of the forgetting of all grief. This is the music that transcends all coming and going.

 Kabir is not escaping into ecstasy. Kabir is embodying that ecstasy and then living out a life of profound, beautiful service to all beings grounded in that joy. There is a way to stay in that joy, my dear friends, even in the middle of the crumbling and burning up the world. Find that way. You’re going to need it, and if you find that way and act from that, miracles will happen. Just wait and see.

Adrian:             

Thank you so much, Andrew, to be continued.

Andrew Harvey:         

 I hope so. You’re beautiful people. I’m honored to be with you. Thank you. God bless you.